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[04 Dec 2008|12:58pm] |
alright, well, i guess it's been going slow... lol
things arent great but theyre alright...
i still talk to orlando and this other buddy i made named Curtis calls me
its cool i still get to talk to people from jamaica.
schools been alright... i have two tests tomorrow :(
today was boring andat lunch i had some skunky weed so that was cool, then i went back to school to write my test and someone dropped perfume so miss couldnt go to the classroom
so i went to christines then we had this crimestoppers presentation during 3rd.
tonight ill just be relaxing with martin.
hes moving on the 17th. its so weird to think about....
i hope i will be alright. well, of course i will.
i hope he's alright too.
i gotta work at 7 am again this saturday.... well... thats all i guess
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| everything is going to be fine |
[01 Dec 2008|01:00pm] |
martin is moving in like a week
hes leaving me a key though so i can help take care of the dogs and stuff.
its going to be really weird, and sad too. i hope he gets his life straightened out.
im just going to be so bored, and not know what to do. ill be lonely. Sigh. i have to deal with that.
im so bored right now. i have to work tonight. i hope orlando calls me.
i miss him so much. i just wish i lived there with him, everything would be so perfect. it would be so warm too, not freezing cold and snow.
but im here for a reason, i guess. im here for now.
Orlando makes me feel so happy, i love him so much.
i wish i could have him for christmas lol
today was boring, i stayed at school for lunch to do math and i have a detention for being late.
:(
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everyone on my friends list comment here with your screen names (ooc and roleplay, whichever ones you sign on) so that i can add them to my buddylist. i'm going back to using heather fury so add it to yours as well :-)
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[29 Nov 2008|06:17pm] |
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peace out
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| poems, some old some new |
[28 Nov 2008|01:44pm] |
I look up at the sky
i am here, i wonder why
im just trying to live
just tryin to get by
got nothin to give, dont know where my head is.
•☺☻♥♦♣♠•
cant beleive you let me down
pushed me so hard, under the water
i drown
you seem so far away from me
and i tried, and i reached for you
You saved me and then you played me
left me with nothing but Hows? and whys?
I beleived in all your fuckin lies
I let you lead me on
while I was lead to someplace new
only now i see it was for me
i didnt do it for you
just like you didnt do shit for me
too tired or busy
you cant even be a friend
must be tough to live so grand.
•☺☻♥♦♣♠•
I feel so dirty and unclean
dont know why, why do i feel this way?
it hurts to smile, it hurts to talk
im so fucked i dont think i can walk
i know im different
i didnt mean to change
if it wasnt so hard
i swear i'd rearrange
my brain so i can be happy
but do i even want that??
im hungry for something though,
and it sure isnt food
im starving for love
that is missing from me, from you
and even when i try to love
i try to give
i try to laugh and live
i try so fucking hard and it all turns to shit
because at the end of the day i still feel the same
full of hate
hate for myself hate f or my friends my family my lover
hate for all the games that life plays hate for the hail im stuck in the same place i call home, the place i call school, hate all and all hates me.
•☺☻♥♦♣♠•
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| Accidental End to the first phase of the sale |
[28 Nov 2008|12:00pm] |
I set the sale to automatically end at noon today, the code, for some reason, ran at 10:21 pm. I have set the prices back to the early price and they will stay that way for 3 more hours (until 3PM EST).
In addition, I have refunded the difference to anyone who purchased a permanently insane account at the wrong price.
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| The sale has started |
[27 Nov 2008|09:33pm] |
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I was slightly late getting it started, but the sale is up and running.
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| i shouldnta told ya that,, |
[27 Nov 2008|01:53pm] |
so right now im doin my homework
fucking parenting...
mrs. simo took my ipod today because kelvin was using it
so i think he thinks im mad at him
but when she took it she made a big deal out of it and i felt like crying, and, well, did.
so i guess she felt bad and gave it back. so then kelvin saw me and i looked like i was crying and shit, so he either thinks im scary, or mad.
then we had this assembly, and i didnt get any awards lol. and i went to martins for lunch.
i work tonight and thats about all im up to.
orlando called me last night and i was at martins so martin got really angry and called me pathetic and punched the wall.
but im so happy orlando called me!.. i didnt think he was going to and he did :D
he said he cant stop thinking about me, that he misses me, and he loves me. and i feel the same way.
so i think me and him are pretty much feeling the same. which is really great.
im just trying to be fine and live here while i still do.
i hate it though because i can like, barely hear him on the phone.. maybe because its so far?.. iuno
goergia keeps looking at me, too. god.
im so done with all this bull.
moving on......
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| Update: InsaneJournal Holiday Sale |
[26 Nov 2008|05:59pm] |
Hello we have decided to extend the hours of the first part of the InsaneJournal Holiday Sale. Our 2008 Holiday Sale that will occur on Thursday and Friday November 27-28th, 2008.
We are running the sale in 2 phases.
The first sale will start at 9pm(EST) Thursday, November 27th and end Noon(EST) Friday November 28th.
The prices will be as follows
Insane Userpics: $65
Permanently Insane: $30
1 Year Self-Committed: $20
6 Months Self-Committed: $10
12 Months Extra Userpics: $10
6 Months Extra Userpics: $6
Rename Tokens: $4
Then from Noon(EST) until Midnight(EST) pn November 28th we will have the second part of the sale.
The prices will be as follows
Insane Userpics: $100
Permanently Insane: $50
1 Year Self-Committed: $20
6 Months Self-Committed: $10
12 Months Extra Userpics: $10
6 Months Extra Userpics: $6
Rename Tokens: $4
After midnight Insane Userpics and Permanently Insane Accounts will not be for sale and the rest of the prices will go back to normal.
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| dont have a cow |
[26 Nov 2008|02:36pm] |
so, about my trip....
i will start from the begining.
when we first got into mentego bay Jamaica it was warm, and i really liked it. we had to wait at the airport for a bit... then we drove to our resort which took 2 hours.
at first i didnt really know what to do, so i went to the beach and listened to my ipod and sat on the dock. i saw a shooting star and i wished for a good time here.
i got my hair braided and it looked cool, but it really hurt at first.
i got some weed, well, too much actually, and i would hurry and roll a quick doob, it was so stinky and i ate the seeds. lets hope a weed plant grows inside of me.
i also got a trim before i got my hair braided, which i still havent really got to see, because half my hair is still braided.
then my sisters wedding, it was half good and half bad.
the wedding was great, they got married on the beach with no shoes and we took lots of pictures and drank champagne. we went out for supper and my uncle started not feeling good, at all.
it seemed like a really bad migraine, but later discovered to be a brain hemorrhage.
so we all left and went back to the resort, i had a bad headache so i got stoned by the beach and it was really cool. i barried what was left of my doob in a big leaf for later use.
a couple days after i met Orlando. and i think im inlove with Orlando.
he is supposed to call me today, so i am waiting for that.
Orlando. He worked at the pool and was a life gaurd. i saw him save a little girl and it just made me, just, love him. even more.
one of the first things he said to me was that i was a complete woman. he was so sweet, but not in my face. i sat with him for the whole day just talking.
sometimes i had trouble understanding him, and i think he thought that was cute.
he liked how i got red marks on my knees from my elbows. he liked my clear skin.
he gave me a necklace and said all he wanted in return was my friendship.
we went swimming one night and he wanted to kiss me.
and we did.
the next night we made love. and boy, i dont think ill have sex that good again in a long time.
after he was done he reached around and said i think im inlove.
and we kissed for a long time.
i havent been able to stop thinking about him. i just want to talk to him. i wish i was still with him.
the day i was leaving he came in early to say good bye to me. i gave him a necklace and a kiss.
i asked him if he thought we should be together and he said yes. hes my man and im his woman.
i said it might sound crazy, and it might.
he really swept me off my feet.
he took a picture of us.
and i left. i saw him after that and he held my hand again.
I miss Orlando Patterson.
call soon, babe.
i also met an older man, the first person i really met, Donald. he said i was very beautiful. and when i disagreed he asked "Dont u ever look in the mirror?"
i also got stung by a bee. and orlando fixed me up :D
now im home. shits the same. i mean, exact same.
i havent even seen martin yet, and im proud of myself for that.
i saw christine thats about it.
school was the same. Kelvin is being sort of a loser. But i dont even need him. lol
that girl is still trying to figght with me.
i boughht this new book, The power of Now.
i hope for the best, everyday.
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| I think... |
[25 Nov 2008|08:16pm] |
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I'm InLove
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| i like new friends |
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i think this tux is too baggy, too tight, it makes me look weird!!
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| 2008 Holiday Sale |
[22 Nov 2008|09:33pm] |
I am announcing our 2008 Holiday Sale that will occur on Friday November 28th, 2008.
We are running the sale in 2 phases.
The first sale will start at 6am(EST) Noon(EST).
The prices will be as follows
Insane Userpics: $65
Permanently Insane: $30
1 Year Self-Committed: $20
6 Months Self-Committed: $10
12 Months Extra Userpics: $10
6 Months Extra Userpics: $6
Rename Tokens: $4
Then from Noon(EST) until Midnight(EST) we will have the second part of the sale.
The prices will be as follows
Insane Userpics: $100
Permanently Insane: $50
1 Year Self-Committed: $20
6 Months Self-Committed: $10
12 Months Extra Userpics: $10
6 Months Extra Userpics: $6
Rename Tokens: $4
After midnight Insane Userpics and Permanently Insane Accounts will not be for sale and the rest of the prices will go back to normal.
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i would get sick as soon as i start my new job
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